While lying awake in the early morning hours...

... sometimes meditation comes so easily while I am lying in the dark.  Sometimes not so much.  It is mildly depressing or possibly quite amusing to be awake through the night.  Gives me a clear picture of what the mind is up to while I am not in attention.  But how would I actually know that if I weren't paying attention?  Listening to Martha Wainwright, Ane Brun, Beth Orton, Eva Cassidy, Rosie Thomas- dulcet voices mixing with dusky seductive voices all coming to me in the dark over long spaces that aren't real.  Isn't the music heard here?   I write this soft energy all in me and around me, to describe the space of being- this.

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You can reach and struggle toward an orgasm- or- you can flow around and through and as the energy and the pleasure opens naturally without effort of any kind and keeps moving while at rest in stillness.  

Now listening... seeing... in attention.     

My beautiful daughter painter wife mother student of the Italian language mu tai boxer (possibly retired) gorgeous generous woman-  this radiant evolving complexity is showing five paintings on the campus tonight.